the thing call *it
each time i sees part of it
i'll start to tear away
each time i hold someone hand
and wanna talk about it
i'll start to fade away
each time i start thinkin about it
i can't stop lettin it fall again
everythin seems so troubled
everythin seems so not right
but yet
i have not met the right one
to let it all out at once
when will i find the one
when will everythin gonna be fine
coz i hate to face day after day
with no solution, with no end...
someone,
help me find my way
coz my journey actually..
has not even yet started as of today..
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
*no one knows
no one will understand
am the happy mankind
that no one will realize what's behind
3:00 AM
Will there be readers after i went missing for so long. Hope not! hah Let my return not be known =!
I'll be off for 2 days to KL for biz trip!~ Do not miss me people! LOL Not really biz trip. Its just a Hari Raya celebration for my biz members. Actually I don't really have that much money to really enjoy while over there. But I think I need to clear my piece of mind well. Just wanna leave the family awhile and get things off for a moment.
But I know, even when am back in Singapore tomorrow's nite, I have to face the reality and solve it myself. hell yeah!~
okie dearest friends... enjoy your weekends!~
muacks
KL!!! Here eirto-. comes again!!
kisah hidupku takkan ada sudahnya
hingga nafas terakhirku...
4:20 PM
who's heart do i have to listen to?
it does not matter how long eir has not been updating. yup she seriously knows that. need not remind her anymore. eir knows that. coz she just hate the sight of her old lappie. she needs to change to a new one.if eir were to buy a new red vaio right now. she simply can. yes eir can. (ahh! nie smue alasan semata-mata. padehal lappie masih elok lagi..kot?)
however her savings priority. is not meant for that. no NO! not for a new lappie. or even for her new business that she has already cipped in which cost almost 20% of her savings!.. no! its for her first wishList! which has been hanging for months. what else is she waiting for??? the oppoturtunity has once missed. and another opportunity is yet to come soon. but herself is not ready for it yet? due to fees? not yet enough? hmm.. nOpe! (tidak, tinggal lagi dua bulan eir still can and have time to save up! tapi belum tentu dapat cukup nanti, haix) solution: easy what?! find another better paid job lar. =X
no. that is not the only reason which is holding back in pursuing the first step of her dreams. she really wants to enrol into that academy so much. thou she had already found out that that there will be a new one soon for next year... eir just don't want that! get it?
kata orang tanpa restu, tiada guna diteruskan. like wanting to enrol a motorbike license. till now, she did not do it. why? she know her parents don't like it, so why should she continue with that. but now, the situation is different. kerna ia membabitkan masa depannya - keinginannya dalam hidup ini!
pada siapa lagi harusku tanya? sampai bila lagi harus ku menderita? dengan masalah lain yang sentiasa menimpa diriku.. apa akan jadi kesudahannya.. tiada guna terus berdoa, tiada guna ku terus berharap.. tanpa usaha mencari jawapannya.. hidupku tak akan ke mana.. haruskah aku mengikut kata hati?
kata teman, hidup ini harus ada pelbagai cita-cita. jangan sahaja setia pada yang satu. betulkah? memang benar, hidup ini tidak sentiasa sempurna. salah langkah, diri akan menderita...
tidak ku minta lahir ke dunia
tidak ku minta perjalanan hidup sebegini
5:43 AM
