exam week
haha
eir visitin libraries and
McD again..
the exam period routines..
to study..
wher else if not these places
again n again
wakaka
only left with the other one those nite routines..
which is..
eir miss to gaze the stars so much
when eir, when?..
* stuck wit this song from sinetron Suci
tittled Rahasia Indah
10:41 PM
projectloads over; put things behind and start afresh
its been a very tensed weeksince 2 weeks ago.
submission deadlines
and presentation preparation
and finally its O-VER!
ouh yeah
sorry guys..
if i have been a big bastard annoying super nanny!
and i wanna mention here again..
am NOT the team leader kie.
am just trying to get everyone do things fast and be get it on time
coz i really do not want to do things last minute
making myself stress or even turning up late again for classes.
haha
and yeah.
after 3 months bein in shatec
only on the 10th week
was my first time taking a pix of myself in the chef uni
hehe
so funny been taking photos of the food that i cooked
but forgot to take my ownself
hua hua hua
(well dats probably coz i dont wear tudung during pracs only put it on during my presentation for foods)
so i dun want to take pix of myself=))
heh.
5:31 PM
it could be a fate
met this guy last year
i remembered clearly it was 28th Dec
he approached me askin am i workin or not
well, he was some kind from an insurance company
i was running away from him
coz i was rushin to the ladies
so he asked what's the rush?
am not gonna eat u up
so okie, i stop tryin to be entertained
and managed to peep at his showcase
okie he's from Prudential
so I said am workin but will be schoolin soon.
then i add on, i just joined an insurance with Prudential on the earlier month
when this Singpost had their roadshow at Sengkang.
Yet its under Prudential.
so he asked again,
what insurance is that that i joined.
so i was fumblin sayin its a kind of health plus saving insurance.
and he goes..
ouh.. PruCash?!
den I.. like.. yurhh..
and till then I remember what insurance actually i had taken up.
haha
so last sunday,
after me n mum went expo for maulid
and had meals at eighteen chef together wit sis
we alight at pasir ris to catch our bus home
i was walkin super slow while lookin at stuff ard the shops..
leavin sis n mum away
the i stopped at bubble tea shop to buy a drink
and while was searchin for mum n sis,
i saw a group of people
one on the left and the other on the right.
and from far, i saw this man from the right group in white was lookin towards me..
tersengih kambing as if am his next target customer
after i took my drink and was walkin at the left path
and that man from right really come to me and wanted to introduce me somethin i guess.
but before he could say anythin..
i shoot him back!
haha
"CCK?! Prudential?!"
then he wierdly asked me..
who are you? what ur name?!
so i went.. I-ra..
he said Ira mane??
den i replied Ira bukan sape2
haha
den he just ask me with question..
"okay did I approach u before?"
and replied saying I did.. and told him was at CCK..
he told it was sometime ago
and cant believe i could remember.. haha
well, then he went on with his question..
wat u doin now?
i told him am schoolin.. den he asked again..
last time u said u was workin rite..
haha.. den he asked again wher am schoolin n such..
and told shatec ther's allowance rite?
and i told him yea but only on my 2nd year.
so after that bla lar lar...
before i went off he said wher am I from?
kenduri?! den I said nolar
and was I alone..
I said i was wit mum.
den he end it with..
okay kirim salam same ur mum..
haha.. (cam kenal jek)
lol
so yeah..
met him in two different place
like really hujung tanjung sei..
kan? kan..?
he's handsome but not cute
he seems friendly.
ade goaty lagik!
haha eir kan suke yang ade goaty
first look cam budak baik
am sure he is in his 25++ hmmm.
(macam budak from madrasah kind pun ade)
haix if i were to meet him again..
kan best..
haha
what an ending week.
=))
start of so stressful.. end up got a smile for myself
hee..
gatal eh eir..
only if to meet him again..
well it could be a fate okie.
lol
(well eir mepek jek nie)
disaat cinta tercipta
semestinya aku merasa
10:59 AM
its been a blardy week
am in total pissed throughout the week
stressed tensed tired crankied had enough!!!
birthday to eirto is a real taboo!
lucky my blurpday day last week was acceptionally fine
but da whole week after that was totally chaotic.
i really dun understand.
am not the leader afterall..
yet everytime am like one.
why?!
Part One
did my group member know that i actually did not slept the whole of sunday nite
and straight went to skool next mornin for my hostin test
its super great that u guys had urs last week
so the unlucky one
me panickinly come to school and be the responsible one to hand up the project.
having-to complete what is not my part..
started and finished up the slides solo-ly
waited online just to kana bein bubbled
and none had told me their wherabouts
hel-lo seriously what the use of having hand-phone?!
then aft my test..
there u come smsin askin me what is required to be done
also tellin me that bro kept his lap-top in the room wher the gf is inside in the room.
seriously i dun care wth u talkin about
coz i've been tired all nite doin things myself!
so that afternoon without sleep i have to work
and yeah next day i overslept!
and late for adrian's class
weeeeeeeeeewoot! wth
Part Twoo
and becoz of last week's class behaviour it affect the whole us.
and for the first time i had to face the wall.
and be punished for bein late.
well its partly my fault for wakin up late.
well rite.. actually i did not wake up late okie..
i woke up almost 6.
but eventually aft work last nite
eirto cant tahan
but she have english presentation to prepare and a recipe to complete.
so she tried to get ecki to wake her up ard 230
she did called up to eigh-teen times but eirto never wakes up
till her alarms went off in the mornin
and she start panickin a-gain!
its a pair job but she end up doin herself
well she did help on the prepation at her place last week
but typin wise i have to do it myself?
she just came back in the mornin from holiday
end up she overslept and did not turn up.
even presentation slides i have to do it and present it my-self!
worst part i ignored my hosting project
coz i had to complete english
making my host group member pissed
forgettin to meet him and give my part
(which eventually i never done it yet)
so i msged and apologised to him, david
and promised to be online during nite
after completin my part and sent to him
he thanked me
and said lucky in the group he had me around
coz he knows the others confirmed hopeless..
Part thre3
and yar..
wednesday its jovert last day workin
before he returns to philipines.
a good friendship was bein cherish wit me and him while he was here
and am always happy when i got to work wit him
and he is just my best laughin partner at work
(beside my dearly Nad, sis)
so eirto favours Jovert to wake me up at 330 for the very last time
coz eirto decided to prepare a special dish for him.
and i actually prepared linguine wit prawns for him
and reached =) b4 7 in the morn
i feel very sad he had to leave
just like other attachment trainees who come and left.
i missed that moment durin with chris last time..
and i feel that i cant afford not to make somethin for jovert this time.
but am actually more of grateful that i did to jovert than chris.
coz am just afraid that he would think that am givin hope to him when am actually did not feel anythin..
for jovert am grateful that friendship occurs between us.
so aft he ate the dish i brought and prepared.
sent him off.. feel like cryin sei.
"macam matair nak tinggalkan kte"
padehal cume teman kie..
Part Four
so aft that i decided to go shaf place as bein requested
that i wanna drop by for restin
plus coz not enough sleep..
kebetulan class starts later due to no practical..
i called her up saying that am on my way
she said okie, come
and when i reach i msged her she did not replied.
called her twice no answered.
and 'ding-dong' her home also nobody answered.
so i was pissed of and den left ahead for school.
(only if i knew that would hapened i would have gone straight to school without singgah eh)
waste my transport only.
she called several times and i just ignored away.
and when she reach skool
she said "merajuk uh tuhh.. sorry uh tgh mandi pe"
well i know it was partly my fault for not waitin.
but i just dun wanna give damn anymore u see..
after class, my hostin members gathered for discussion
Part Five
and we took picures ard the skool.
see how it goes..
so at nite i have to gather updated points from members and add in into slides.
then send to fredrick for grammar checkin.but eventually i end up sendin him a blank attachment!
s-way me!
only figured it out on thurs during class when fred told me bout it.
hmphhh.. T.T
and yar..
moreover am workin
how am gonna send it to him..
dead eirtoi cant just let him wait for me till midnite to receive it u see..
so i send to luqmn via bluetooth
hopin that he could help me..
then end up..
something big again happen
he accidentally delete that file!
i cant focused at work
end up i have to surrender my password to him coz i have an ori copy sent by david
so yeah, i did manage still to transfer the file to him for checkin
aft i got home from work
straight to lappie to check if fred had sent me the file back
he did but again eir was to tired
but she has pictures and other photos to include in that presention
also an individual 250 essay
haiyo.. she slept first and requested syar world to wake her up coz she saw him online
he called me once but i did not woke up
but still did aft an early went off.
she spend her time finishin up her stuff and the clock reach almost 6
eir knows that its time to get ready for school
but then..
Part 7
she didn even realise she has fallen asleep
and only woke up at 730
eir really dunno wat to do.
been late almost in adrian class
and she cant aford to come late again for the 3rd time.
so yea.. for the first time ever she ponteng her class in shatec -.-
sobs.. coz got demo some more mahh
Part eight-finale
a lil thing to highlight
for hosting presentation,
i was more relax not really panickin coz the slides to present wasnt somethin new.
but somethin that use the mind to speak out
but yet during presentation
syar world spotted me 'menggeletar' and did not move an inch througout my presentation
haha
funny lar..
and after the presentation,
the mentor actually asked
among the 4 attributes bein discussed which one or more attributes were bein practice during th e process of completing this project.
fred unknowingly mentioned my name!
idiot. i did not expect that really..
he said somethin like..
"Irah actually did the extra mile of askin somebody to mail him the slides coz she's workin the day before"
Attributes shown : "Care n Concern"
hearing that i actually turn around to face the walls. haha.
paisei sia.. just feel weird how come he knew bout dat. lol..
well i did dat just to perfecto the slides u see..
but end up. i missed my class in the morning..
that is totally no good.
showed the C n C attributes..
yet am not showing professionalism.. -.-
1:43 PM
please change, gotta change
I've been attending adrian's class super late these days. Even 10-15mins of my normal lateness is already considered late,what more 30-40 mins late for since last friday and today he got so mad at 1st coz of the idiot 4 'mus-tars' (musquteers<- spellin error eh) that the whole class silly attitudes were bein pointed out which consists of punctualities.. He also pointed out that '08 april intake hosts are worried coz till up to date they have not get a place for their attachment. This is due to the bad recession in Singapore. And while on the home in MRT, i glanced at somebody newspaper that recession does not only occur here, but GLOBAL. That's seriously bad! Kitchen household and marketing are gettin higher but pay are being cut down not just that sadly some were being retrenched. Even gold jeweleries are damn expensive that it hit really high than usual rates (as bein told by sis Dee). haix, what is the world turning to?!
Okie, get back to class about this morning, eir was almost 40 mins late and met Harry along the way, whom is considered 'everyday starK'. It seems am turnin one just like him. eir, a person who loves the stars so much is turnin to 'star karatz' every now and then. ish. help help! ouh no!~ am suppose to buy an alarm clock in my way home just now but i simply forgot.. See!~ stupid forgetful eirto!~ haizx. and yar, what i wanna mention as i enter adrian's first class today.. i was sent to face the wall wit 4 other hosts. Really had shown a very bad impression of me towards chef. I was seriously shameful too. I awarded adrian a cookie o my birthday for appreciatin him bein part in my 21st life but at the same time 'slappin' him wit my bad attitude of coming late. I feel important to show appreciation towards other, yet I myself not appreciating towards my ownself, my own attitude and my own behaviour towards the passion am into. Dearest Jovert returning home to Philipines and I must highlight, he had help me a lot wake up call me in the morning and am gonna miss that real hard. ='( and gonna depend again on myown. Sometimes I need someone to push me than I will move. But till when should I acted on that. Am big enough to do things all bymelf.. Why am I still too dependable at most time.
So who's fault was it?! I had been ton-ning for the last few days to complete my Foods and then unpurposely neglecting other projects coz I was focused to one, end up making a bad impression of me towards the other team members of another project. I did not slept the whole of sunday nite for Foods while other members; one enjoying herself in KL and the other simply 'don't care' just because the computer is bein locked in brother's room wit the girlfriend. I was panickeing throughout the night and members ain't tellin me their whereabouts, bubbling me waiting for ghosts on the msn line. Hel-lo!!! What's the purpose of having hand-phone?!! eki is su-per true! maybe am bein too easily forgiven and understanding which end up sufferin myself! I was so tired last nite after work dat I can't even open my eyes. I asked a favour from her to call me at 230 am so dat I can complete my english presentation. She called. But apparently I did not wake up. I was only concious in front of my lappie at almost 6am in the mornin! Checked the phone.. received 18 misscalls from her and none of it waked me up?! See am tired. People around me was the one making myself stress and tired. Why things just got even worst when it was already real bad?! So I was panicking this morning completing my english report that I end up bein in school super late! Why not?!.. chef jacket have not been ironed, my clothes also not ironed and bag was not bein packed... And I have not complete my English slides when the presentation is right after adrian's class.
When will eir gonna change?!!
adrian is so true! He said to the class.. No point saying sorry to him but end up you repeat your mistakes again. I wasn't having intention to tell sorry to him but when he said that it somehow does move my thinkin that I myself won't be sure to will I change after the long lecture? Am I able to wake up early in the morning and got myself ready fast?!! See lar.. alarm clock can forget to buy. But I can still bought the sandal coz I remember I need one. But COULD NOT remember I need an alarm clock?!! really bad eirto..
9:48 PM
BULLSHIT
its BULL-SHIT!!!!
missin project members really
are KILLING me like hell.
we are 2 days late for submission
and they still DON'T CARE
this is what you guys called
PASSION?!!!
IDIOTlar..
am in Shatec for my PASSION!!!
and you guys are spoillin it okie!
i had enough of all this..
really kana BUBBLE!!!
and i shud have known..
been complainin to the wrong person..
who end up does not even give me the work for me to COLLATE!!!!
* how can i relax if things are goin wrong when it shud not be!!!!
8:32 PM
somehow it does hurt
it does feel hurt-ful
really it does
when the best and close ones
has actually forgotten
it does not applies to those that did not know
but surprisingly
some had surprised me
from those who just knew it
thanx lotsa
hmm.
but then
maybe i shud reflect myself
AGAIN
that
actually
am just
all
alone
in this earth
=(
*am just not important to any those whom i have regard as best and close ones.
** i guessed am bein too emotional
1:10 AM
still bein celebrated
so after eir teared
she spend 10 mins
celebratin her day
under the stars
gazin at how beautiful they were tonite..
just before she head home
accompanied by the moonlite
the family still celebrate eir birthday
thou its kinda late
but it is understandable
coz sis will only buy cake aft her work.
so eir had this one below.
a med black forest birthday cake
thanx sis
thanx family!
=)
received birthday card from lil sis.
so chweettt.
but multiple spellin and grammar errors
but its okie.
its da tot dat counts.
after dat
had a redbull to energize herself
coz she have lotsa pix to scan
and project to hand in next day..
so yea birthday gurl cant sleep early!
bluek
final updates..
thanx to hengy dear, thav ma'am
eki dear, li wen dear, rauda dear
plus shuk dearest and jov dearest
for the last minute wishes!
and finally...
happy 21st birthday eirto-. Nur!!!!
*bro faz returns tml; march 7!!!
11:46 PM
birthday to eirto is a self-reflection day
so what if others feel special on their big day
and i did not
i had my day normal
just like any other days.
but really did not expect the whole class to know
and thanx so much for the birthday song
so sweet of you guys lar..
idiot me askin shaf to edit a sentence last nite
(which is now appear on the other post just before this)
and becoz of that shaf decided to see my Ic.
i was reluctant.
but she ransacked my bag.
fine!
gendeng.
i really need dat sentence not just to post it
but to give someone who really had made my 21st of life wonderful kie.
which include for all of my dear friends too..
well and i just knew dat yest also
falls on my other 2 classmates birthday.
not fair rite?
the others did not know so they dun wish them.
my kurt 17th n moon 19th
falls exactly just before mine
hmphh.
okie cut!
so eir was on the way home today
when it was maghrib
and was turnin on her mp3
decided to listen "taubat seorang hamba"
and suddenly she forgots
she actually turns 21st today.
so in the line while quein for 161
she wishes herself..
"happy birthday irah!"
and she cried
leavin her tears droppin on her cheeks.
she cried because at this age, she really need to reflect back on herself
what are the things that has been goin thru these years
and she's thankful that she is now in Shatec
pursuin her real dreams
and doin what she likes most.
=)
not just that.
another year older
it means responsibilities too is pillin up and tougher
the more she gets older
its like the more naughtier she has transformed
that is not what a servant shud do to his/her creator
so yup
eirto always wanted to change for the better.
first step!
she will follow abah for coming 'ratib'
on the coming of fortnight fri nite
hmmph
insya allah
we'll see!
and please irah!
never leaves her most important 5 times daily routine lar eh
haix
bad irah!
second step!
she wanna become an adventurous person rite?
so she has decided to join the guys and chef to play..
PAINT BALL
or chef called it as PAIN BALL during our upcomin holiday..
eir was the only lady who would be joinin as shaf is goin for sydney..
eir was da last to join in after da total was 19 people who wished to participate.
chef wants the participants to be 'genap'
so yea.. she decided to go for it!
and suddenly chef goes like.. "are you sure...?!"
wit his eyes big opened..
and she answered.. "why not?!"
=)) and chef smile off.. haks
last but not least.
so eirto would like to say
thanx to Jov, Nad n Kak Mandee for wishin
thanx to daya n dayah too
plus hafiz BAM and hengy
and also specially to my classmates.
thanx from the bottom of my heart
and yesh
eirto turns 21st today.
she's old really.
heh.
9:40 PM
*hates her birthday
but most importantly
dear loved ones
thanx for bein there on my 21st year
and making my life colourfully,
wonderful!!!
=))
*coz no one understands
many loves
eirto-. Nur
12:03 AM
nothin but herself
27 Random things bout eirto-.
1. She was once a lost girl who was uncertain and had an aimless Life ahead her. But now, she is one happy Shatekian host! =))
2. She hate quittin things half-way. =! That's her uh. Like... She still finished up her Diploma in Mobile & Wireless Computing thou she don't really like IT industry. wth. whateva; its done anyway.
3. She took up a Food Prep ITE Cert before entering Tp. Therefore she is now back into F n B industry to pursue her real dream! Wuhuhoo..
4. She often.. (maybe always) PROCASTINATE things thats why she end panicking at the very last minute and stressin up herself.
5. She often need a wake caller to wake her up in the morning not just for school but work too.. (bad huh) lol
6. She perspires lots! any time any occassion. be it when she's nervous, anxious, bein late for classes or even work.. That is most probably to her big size in person. =!
7. She is STILL a computer IDIOT at times thou she had attained a diploma in IT.. -.-"
8. She is one forgetful idiot! That's why she call myself; slow Learner! hua hua hua.
9. She can be SUPER slenger at times. its damn true! -.-"
10. She is still bein called 'adek' in the family thou she has 2 lil sister n a younger bro.
11. She prefer having the exact number of candles on her birthday cake rather than 2 big to refer as 20. But she will never like to blow them off, instead she will fan them away.. LAME! -.-"
12. She has fickled minded at times.
13. She has never drank Coffee Bean as to date and only drinks her 1st Starbucks when she was 19 back then. o.0 Also, she have not tried haagen daaz ice cream.. serious! so what anyway.. it does not matter.
14. She's not that adventourous lady but she does really hope she will be one.
15. she has been a Singlehood almost to her 21st year. But friends do come to her when they have relationship problems. hah.
16. She's big and ugly that no one will turn again for their second time. kwang3
17. Her nicks called by friends ; Rara, Bad as in 'Bard', Ira..
18. She cherish true friendship.
19. She is now damn busy with school and work that she does not even have time for family, friends and sometimes even herself. =! (dat's bad)
20. She misses her friends so much and hope to gather with them soon but when?! Her poly friends; daya aini fylo shad eki. Madrasah cliques; bro faz, bro keem, rauda, sue, fadh, nas, fiz, fiq, lihin, nisa. Best sis; Nad! Mandee! Kak Santi! Best Mar. Bestest Fisah! Bestie ai' !! haiyoo..
21. She really HATE the kind like him! ; craps like WORLD, gile pangkat! and Love desporados.. These people are just hypocrites..
22. She's not confident yet bein a speaker in front of a class. Presenting in front of a class of almost 40 is so huge and is like way back last 5 years (sec2) she faced those crowds to talk. (even a class in poly does not even exceed 25 students)
23. Really hate when she turn another year older. Not much of the age but the day when it comes.. Because its Bo-Ring!!! and will always make her mad unreasonably on that day.. dunno why lar.. she don't give a flying care.
24. Starting not to hope for Love anymore cause true Love will come when it is being destinied.. "Cinta tidak perlu dicari, Kerna ia akan datang sendiri?.."
25. She really wanna travel around the world and see things she has never seen before.
26. She loves bein loved by people and not having enemies surround her.
27. She envy the stars so much that she is sometimes one crazy person who will stare at the nite sky out of a sudden.
and that's her...; eirto! =))
12:23 PM
and finally...