Tarikh Keramatku
Apa yang dimaksudkan Tarikh Keramat yang tertera di tajuk blog ku pada malam ini. Aku sesungguhnya ingin berkongsi dengan semua bahawasanya.. Aku telahpun meminta keredhaan daripada kedua ibu dan abah ku pada jam tepat 7:20 selepas waktu Maghrib diadakan secara berjemaah bersama adik-beradik ku. Untuk apa?.. kini aku dengan secara rasminya telahpun bergelar ”the new e-Business Entrepreneur”. (lihat profilku disebelah kanan) heh..
Walaupun pada dasarnya, gelaran itu telah ada padaku semenjak Raya yang lepas. Tetapi aku tidaklah berapa istiharkan pada semua. Kerana? Aku masih belum yakin apa yang telah aku ceburi pada mulanya. Hinggalah beberapa minggu selepas itu, (selepas menghadiri beberapa perbincangan dan seminar) aku yakin bahawa apa yang telahku ceburi adalah sangat tepat pemilihanku ini.
Dengan berbekalkan kad nama yang baru ku ambil dari Mak Long ku semalam serta ‘brochure’ yang telah hampir sebulan ku mencetaknya, lalu ku persembahkan kepada Abahku dan meminta agar abah doakan kejayaan adek yang sebelum ini pernah diberitahu oleh Mak Long bahawa abahku yakin aku tidak akan minat dengan bisnes yang akan diperkenalkan padaku sebelum aku menceburinya beberapa bulan yang lepas.
Kini dengan penuh keyakinan yang kental (walaupun masih berbekalkan sedikit rasa takut serta cemas) dengan tujuan yang satu; Aku Mahu Duit.. Untuk Diri Serta Dapat Membahagiakan Keluargaku.. Ya aku ingin berjaya dalam bisnes yang ku ceburi ini! Insya Allah aku boleh berjaya!
Aku telah berjanji dengan abahku juga.. “kalau dalam masa enam bulan adek tak buat duit, adek akan berhenti!” Tetapi ini tidak bermakna tanpa usaha aku mengharapkan duit dapat jatuh dari langit. Apa yang aku ceburi sesungguhnya bukan sama sekali skim cepat kaya, kalau beli loteri pun belum tentu boleh menang. Bisnes ini perlukan kesungguhan diri yang konsisten. Tanpa itu dalam masa enam bulan pun jangan harap boleh dapat satu sen! Macam apa yang ku alami selama ini, sudah menjadi ahli sejak Raya lepas, tapi mulut ini tidak berapa meyakinkan orang.. bagaimana orang mahu ambil tahu lebih lanjut bukan? Serta caraku yang macam endah tak endah untuk meyakinkan. Makanya, disebalik sikapku yang endah tidak endahku itu membuatkan diriku melepaskan peluang yang kadang-kala ada di hadapan mata. Bukannya apa, hatiku masih mengatakan belum boleh lagi untuk mula.. Tapi kini, semangatku kian membara.. dan aku berharap sangat agar diriku tidak patah semangat terlalu cepat ketika ini. Walaupun diriku tahu banyak rintangan, halangan serta kata2 orang yang akan melenyapkan misi pertamaku...
Fuhhlamak!!! eirto speaking malay uh.. amacam? how? very karatzx rite?.. anyway to those non-malay readers... I was saying that I have finally got the blessing from my parents to start with my new business.. called the e-marketing Business. Do spare me some of your time.. If you wanna know how to make fast money with easy, transparent and the honest way. Come to me, and I will try to convince you as much as possible. If you understand how the plan goes, you can easily make instant profits and cover the amount of you have invested in, in this Business. All the best to me! and to you too =)
aku ingin terbang dan menari
jauh indah di tempat kau berada...
11:24 PM
Dilemma eirto
To accept or not to accept?..
But firstly.. the question arise shud be..
To give or not to give?..
Well my hp number can be found everywher in the store sei.. Is up to him to take it or not..Okielar, it is so respectful of him towards me..Thou i ignored when my number is bein asked..he still doesn't steal my number from the schedule.. So good of him eh..is he?.. hmm.. I think its been 3 weeks we met during changin of shifts..
he kept irritated me by saying please please.. "kasi budak nie nye number blei?"
den he goes like "i bukan nak ur number tapi i nak the gurl yang dalam hp u tuhh"
well that gurl in my phone is obviously me lar.. Boo!
then..back to.."please ira, kasi number..."
keep repeatin n irritates me..say nice things like.. (nehmind let it be my secret)
ira this.. and ira that lar.. but
erm.. but he did mention..
he prefer malay gurls lar then his own race..
whateverlar..
so i went movie watchin wit akak, wirul n da bratz last wed.its Madagascar 2!!!the movie was suPer hilarious...but the stupid part was.. the hippo ends up bein together wit giraffe..i must say its not stupid actually.. but somehow that part actually 'sindir' me in a way..like.. the same kinds usually goes with the same kind..rite..somemore they are animals.. i guess in reality.. we will never see such things..but in human life?.. every human being is the same!wat makes us different is..the race and religion we have..
and well... every individual has his or her wants..like me and you..we would want some criteria to be in him or her.doesnt have to be handsome or cute. (lau dpt satu bonus lar)or doesnt have to intelligent or rich..rite.. (lau dpt nie pun satu bonus jugak lar)but him? of different race.. i would prefer the X than Y..am not bein a racists.. but its just preference.i would prefer to be friends with some species.. (species eh?)rather than havin relationsip with this species.i can see that he is a nice guy..but sometimes i think that he is too despo to have one..why that arises is because... the question is Why 'me'?Is it because am still and am the only solo gurl in the store.. (coz i must say others look much betta than me lar)that was why i have doubts on him..doubts that strongly tell me that..aft him knowing that the rest are all attached and married..that's why he come to disturb me..well am not there as a spare part u see..but well.. dat is only my point of view, at first..but after others told me.. that they thought he wasnt serious bout tacklin me and he actually did and keep on continue wit it..i guess he is serious?but seriously i dunno lar..
Bout dis guy kan..
Bile berbahase sebut u-i u-i!
Bile panggil.. *ehem, *ehem!,
aiyo so geli telinga i!
Menyampah btul cam nak kene trajang..
Minat pompuan mlayu uh..
Ira nie and Ira dat..
Whatever again okie..
Thou takde org pernah puji ira camtu..
So dont ever continue to make ira cair okiecoz susah lar ira nak fall for him.. and will never fall for *a at all.. Sorry skit dat will never happen!!!
Ouh ya.. no worries Daya.. our so called bet is still on. am sure am da one who will be treatin un not u treatin me.. Heh. I know lar lau ade jodoh tak ke mane kan. Heh. Tapi Ira pasti.. Dalam soal jodohpertemuan... u will have first before myself. Coz am still uncertain for myself to have one thou i do desire to have a soulmate.But its just not now and wont be dis soon.. Heh..
Jangan bilang tidak
Bila kita belum mencoba
Siapa yang tahu akan sama
Hatimu dan hatiku
11:14 PM
eirto-aieto Diary! Chapter "School Returns"
The picture explains everything to the Post title.. The two besties of Tp Graduant actually returns to school due to.. We mish the school cho much!!!! Were we? I did lar huh... But don't really know bout her.. But when we were there and was gossiping and recaping what were the things we had been doin in our 3 horigible?! years was indeed very much to be remain as good memories.. We were close during our 1st years but got somehow seperated in year 2 onwards.. I really need to catch up some of the things that we missed doin together.. But we got really close when it was near to end of the final semesters.. and we became much closer nowadays.. and I do realise too.. on how much time I have not been spendin wit her durin the mid years during Tp Life.. But since we got graduated.. We endlessly keep in touch with each other... Hope our friendship remains and no more 'halangan' will keep us apart okie.. Insya Allah...
Well i guess, eirto have not been a really good bestie to aieto.. I have actually forgotten bout her plans to visit the Changi Airport after we visit our school. Since it was my off day of the week.. and wanted to spend my time only wit bestie.. but the home = the kids and mum too mish me as well and wants me to spend my time with them.. haiyo.. bad eirto! sorry aieto
So bestie.. as I said before and mention again here..
am not the only a bestie eirto to bestie aieto..
but also a sister to lil bratzx..
a daughter to her parents..
the listenin ear to her colleagues
the friend to her madrasah cliques, best ghurlfrens and more
BUT i will always try to be ur bestest bestie!
heh
Selagi daya hatiku ini
Akan tetapku menyayangi..
3:23 AM
Cikgu Nur's diary...
Who would expect your childhood ambition would come true?What was your first ambition when you were young? Do you still remember?For boys, mostly they would dream of becoming a Policeman? Fireman? or maybe a Doctor? etc & etc..and as for girls.. maybe a Nurse? or a Teacher?!Yesh a Teacher.. My ambition when i was younger was to become a teacher..How about you? Have you achieved it?Unexpectedly.. I had become one!and maybe continue as one again.. and Yeash my students called me Cikgu Nur! heh (Cikgu Nur eh...)
Thanx to Bestest Fisah.xoxo
That unexpected opportunity was introduced by her..Why.. Because the newly wedd wasnt feelin good after her honeymoon. So she asked me if I could replace her on her second day onwards.And of coz I accept it.. Why again.. well its pretty much because of the money. heh..Earning 12 bucks per hour. And yar.. Its all about-The Money.. Who doesn't want.
I was known as 'eirto' or in short 'eir' by bloggers..
known as 'adek' and 'kakak' in the family.
a 'bestie' to her bestie..
Bein called 'Bad' as in pronouced as 'Bard' by best ghurlfrens
and known as Irah by most colleagues and friends..
and suddenly 'Cikgu Nur' hmm..
or maybe soon remain as 'sayang' by him.. Oops (need not know dat uh huh)
((Hushhh! Not so sOon bout that maybe not))
Okie back to Cikgu Nur's diary was about this eir has no teachin experience.never had become a tutor thou she feels like tryin one day..but if to recall.. she did buddy readin program durin her pri5.(and dat was close to a decade)okie whatever..I need to teach 2 class, 2 hours each to the Pri2 students of one of the neighbourhood school in tamp.Okie wait.. wat am i teaching? eager to know?its teaching Bahasa Melayu Pertuturan or "Malay Conversational Class"
wanna know bout eir's 1st day experience wit her class?!It was.. suPer rotten!! Coz eir doesn't know how to do class management.the student was suPer chaotic. maybe equals to this lousy Cikgu Nur. hah
but that doesn't mean I gave up on my very 1st teaching day..The 2nd topic for them that I need to continue with was 'Berkenalan' or 'Getting to Know Each Other'The 1st class 2/7 or 2Hope that I faced first in my life.. was kinda great..they seemed eager to learn the new language but I wasnt prepared to become a good teacher..I had problems handling the class when it was quiz session..When i picked up their hands to let them answer.. some students wasnt satisfied because they think i picked others than those who picked up their hands first. (stress kan.. hah)its all because of getting the 'bintang' stickers lar..coz i promise them who have the most stars by the end of the programme will receive a present..(haix.. kids.. who doesnt want present rite?!)
As for the 2nd class for that day.. I face 2/1 or 2Love.Fisah told me the students in this class all macam step pandai..but rupe-rupenye.. smue notorious! lau cite P Ramlee.. we say it as "macam setan!" hohit was much challengin wit this class, of cozwhen i was more prepared to teach the 2nd class.. the students were the ones who cant sit still..the girls were more eager than the boys..and most of the students did not want to take down notes unlike those from 2Hope.and when i test them, some almost got it rite.. but padan muke lar.. takmau copy kan.. korang nye pasal lar..kecik2 dah pandai cakap.. blei ingat dalam otak..
Day2. its about My family or "Keluarga Saya"I gave homework for them to do.. which is the family tree.Again the class wasnt much enthusiasm with my teaching.. it seem they prefer to play games than hear my teaching..even for singing they just wont want to sing unless i reward them wit somethin.. Ishh..
Day3. Suppose to be "Nombor, Tarikh dan Masa"Since it was my last day..I start of with 2Love recaping about the day before's lesson.asked the kids some vocabs..Taught them simple questions like "Apa itu?" & "Apa Ini?"then to make more interesting, i make the class split into 2 den make them sing!what song?!
"Ibu saya, Ibu saya
Dimana? Dimana?
Ibu ada disini, Ibu ada disini
Sembunyi! Sembunyi!"
Ouh.. Cikgu Nur was so touched that the class finally get together and put effort for the class participation.And it was almost the end of Bahasa pertuturan melayu for the 2Love.Aft 3 days with them, It was so stress handling them I must say.Students especially boys kept running about. Play fighting by using long rulers. A gurl, named Lydia was being sit separately from the groups.She was named 'elephant' thou she doesnt look like one. Aft some queries from Bestest Fisah. She was bein told that Lydia was called elephant bcoz she was bein chosen to become a volunteer during the school excursion to the Zoo..The class was so eager to know what is elephant called in malay.. Well I wanted to share with them at first, but other students told me to ignore them.Well I think I should follow what the girls said and I did.. If not it wont be a good tradition for Lydia to be called 'gajah' plak rite..
2Harapan:2Hope..My first and final class to be taught on my last day.Again start of with simple questions..Finish up few more slides I did not complete with regarding "Keluarga Saya" topic.and suddenly I had problems teachin when I translate the malay sentences word by word.The word 'seorang' which i told them refers to '1 person'The sentence was.. "Saya ada seorang kakak" which means "I have one sister" rite. But when I said 'seorang' means '1 person' they got really confused till i had to 'peng' them dat number 1 in malay is very unique!So I recap with dem bout numbers.. like for ten we call it sepuluh and not satu puluh. we can call satu ratus but more exact we call it seratus!From there I think they somehow understand..Padehal when I went home and consult with Bestest Fisah.. she told me we should not emphasize 'penjodoh bilangan' to students. hah.But that 'seorang' part.. ntahlar eh.. whether they finally 
understands at the end of my lesson or not.Ouh yeah i proceed the class to split into 2 again like ealier class. and make them sing.even before i teach the second line of the song.. they are eager to sing and somehow know how the song songs like. Easy kan. hahWith 2Hope I made the class more interesting by having a 'Guessing Game'.Who guess if I have 'kakak', 'abang', 'adik lelaki' and 'adik perempuan' will get 1 bintang for every correct answers.Well yeah.. I have all and showed them my family tree. and my souvenirs from the students I had was the family tress they made as their homework.. Touching kan..
I awarded 3 sweets each to everyone in 2Love at the end of the day and 2 notebooks to a gurl & a boy who received the most 'bintang'As for 2 Hope (which is my favourite class...) I gave a 
lollipop each to everyone anf also notebooks to the most attentive students in the class..Ending momments with 2Hope was much more proper and the moment I stepped out.. I feel like crying.. Coz they are my 1st and the last class I taught, gave the spontanious participation in class..Although I had difficulties with them on my first day.. But am glad I end the programme with them..And yar I managed to take their pictures too.. (Padehal, my teaching time dah overshot).. I went into the class again at the back door to take their pictures.. (Padehal teachernye ade di depan!)Kwang3..
And before this Cikgu Nur returns home.. She bought herself Honeydew Ice Blended with 
Pearls.. Ouhh... So coolin.. (Padehal she did bought one before goin school earlier..) Well what to say, the wheather was so hot.. But her throat was much thirsty that she need Icy drink! Icy Iced... See-> She's tired yet she still put on a smile.. (Padehal dalam otak de stress before her final class tau..
And seein this picture.. Ade orang plak yang terpikat sebab matenye besar.. Padehal mate eir bleh di catagorizekan sebagai sepet.. Well its all the camera trick.. Memang bute! agaknye si mamat tuhh...
Takdir, pertemukanku
Membuatkanku Jatuh Cinta
3:46 AM
Restu Abah & Ibu
The group meeting at Cikgu Salamah's house with the Makciks was kinda boring at first. But am glad I did attend cause at least I learn something, and more knowledge with these Makciks-Makciks sharing their thoughts and knowledge on how to succeed in the Business that I have been taken up. Yup, I did regret and sound frustrated at first.. as if I was being forced by my Mak Long to join the business she has been involved few months earlier than me. But, slowly after attending few seminar and talks, I must say that I am so thankful to Mak Long for introducing that business opportunity in my life. Okie when we say makciks-makciks doing business.. what will out mind think? okie let's put it straight.. It is MLM! So what?! Anyway if you think MLM is only meant for makcik-makcik.. You are so wrong!!... Am not the only youngest of Mak Long's downline.. Cikgu Salamah also has one young guy as her downline by the name of Zane(his nick)... Me and him may be the youngest and of the same age. But the fact is.. he is still much younger than me by months... Chiss! Okie that is not the point.
I have been a member since last Raye, but the truth is.. I am still not making money at all..(dah buang banyak duit adelah) I am still stuck with stuff that am still uncertain.. which makes me too afraid to start.. bad isn't it? During that meet up.. Cikgu Salamah actually shared that Zane wasn't making money too during his 1st 2 months since he joined (eh?).. but now.. he finally starting to earn somethin.. which actually did amaze me somehow..
During Cikgu Salamah's sharing, she did mention that... in this business or anything and everythin we do.. we have to get our parent's prayers and blessings.. Without these.. we, you, me as a child cannot go far.. even if you have tried so hard and still does not succeed in everything that you have been doing.. BLESSINGS is what you have been lacking of.. So what actually happens and made me shed lotsa tears was when.. Zane actually shared with us that last Raye, when he was asking forgiveness from his parents.. he actually asked blessings from his parents to pray for his success in this business.. somethin like " Doakan kejayaan Nal dalam bisnes nie, Lau Nal tak berjaya dalam masa 6 bulan, Nal akan berhenti" When I heard that.. only god knows how I feel.. =|..
If i were to recall.. and if you were to recall... when was the last thing you actually ask blessings from your parents... My answer will be.. that was almost 4 years back when I had just finish my O levels.. almost everything and anything that I have been doing since the last 4 years (or never had been asking their blessings), I did not ask or tell them.. a bad daughter indeed huh?! Not that they didnt know what I've been doing.. Its just that.. after I join or take part into somethin then they will know.. especially my dad.. I did not ask his approval before I did somethin.. but usually it will be after I took part into somethin that he will know about it.. One example that really shock me months back when my dad ask me, " Pernah tak anak abah tanya, samaada abah kasi korang kerja ke tidak?". That question was asked to me when I had joined =) for more than 2 years.. Okie maybe I did mention this in earlier post. But since Zane had shared with us how he finally get the enthusiasm to start doing the business which is by gettin blessings from his parents.. Thou I did heard from others that Zane's father actually wasn't happy at first with he first joined this business. Now that I realised that I have not been asking my parents blessings before doin somethin. (Exclude the motorbike part okie..) Mak Long told me last week dat abah wasnt happy when she sounded to him months ago, she wanted to introduce the so called 'MLM' business to me.. but unexpectedly I had become and am part of it and I have faith with it.. but one thing for sure.. true! I have not been earning from this business yet. But that doesn't mean am failing.. I think I just need some more time to know how to become a leader and talk like a leader.. Then I will put whole heartedly on it.. and also... after getting from my parents blessings.. and that will be soon from now.
Ai is rite too.. Now that I have realise what I have not been doing.. The best solution to get a smoother path in life is start doing what I am suPpose to do = ask for parent's *blessings.
People.. do not become like me okie? Start now, Before its too late..
ku cuba tanpamu disisi
ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
10:05 PM
the stars are brilliant tonight!
I really miss the sight of stars.
Those moments, when one of my best ghurlfren introduce to me the best view of night life. And I had been frequently went stars gazing during the first few months of the year when it was ending to school days.. For now, its been months since anyone ask me out for stars gazing and it has also been 3 months since i last work night shift.
So when finally I got the opportunity to work nights to get extra allowance, my intention wasn't to gaze at the stars of cause. My colleague and I was having our break and was 'lepak'ing outside the store... I was quite surprise when the stars above me was so brilliant that night. I just can't stop gazing them and how I wish I could lay down there and enjoy my view without having neck pains.. But passer by and patrons will think am I crazy or not rite?! So betta not to lay down.. Moreover that area is so dirty lar kan.. Suddenly I thought of this song.. Let's sing together okie? heh!
"Bintang Kecil di Langit yang Tinggi
Amat Banyak Menghias Angkasa
Aku Ingin Terbang dan Menari
Jauh Tinggi ke Tempat kau Berada"
"Little starts, In the sky high above
So many of you decorating the sky
I want to fly and dance
Far, far away to where you are"
Well, at this twentienth of age, I still wanna be that little star.. I wanna fly and dance, far, far away to where they are.. Am I being childish? No, I don't think I still am. I have always been a little star and so are you. But I have not become that little star who has been decorating the sky high above to where it has always been.. I have still not fly high, I have still not dance far... and I do hope one day I can be that shiny star like what most of my friends has become..
Dearest friends, do pray for my shining moments to shine. I hope one day, I'll become somebody, somebody that will shine bright like those in the sky and stay shiny in my parents heart. Amin...
Dapatkah aku memeluknya
Menjadikan *bintang di syurga
3:25 AM
am tired of everythin
yesh am tired
am suPerbly tired of everythin
am tired of earnin very few..
as little as lesser than 5 bucks per hour..
very little indeed huh..
am tired of abah tellin me not..
NOT to take my elder siblings as my role models...
(when i already know that)
am tired of wirul
takin my stuff without askin permission
makin me angry
and showin off my temper to him..
but still...
after shoutin & yellin..
he still doesnt change!..
am tired of abang's behaviour
tired of his behaviour...
which requires myself to control every single movements at home!
cannot watch tv at late nites
no shoutin (even if its not to him)
abide every single of his needs
worst.. no playing wit the lappie/net!
and because of him...
am tired of mummy not lettin me to work full time
even for a short while...
(until i return to school again next year)
because of him,
mummy can't send sis to school..
his behaviour that make ME have to send lil sis to school instead
then makin me turnin up late for work
and my boss will have to cut my pay!
WTH!~
am tired with the house..
still very messy
here and there...
not moving out...
am tired with the family members
who cant reunite at at all..
the family is going doomed
seriously..
it can fall apart anytime..
ku bukan robot
ku, ku bukan robot
4:13 AM
understands at the end of my lesson or not.Ouh yeah i proceed the class to split into 2 again like ealier class. and make them sing.even before i teach the second line of the song.. they are eager to sing and somehow know how the song songs like. Easy kan. hahWith 2Hope I made the class more interesting by having a 'Guessing Game'.Who guess if I have 'kakak', 'abang', 'adik lelaki' and 'adik perempuan' will get 1 bintang for every correct answers.Well yeah.. I have all and showed them my family tree. and my souvenirs from the students I had was the family tress they made as their homework.. Touching kan..
lollipop each to everyone anf also notebooks to the most attentive students in the class..Ending momments with 2Hope was much more proper and the moment I stepped out.. I feel like crying.. Coz they are my 1st and the last class I taught, gave the spontanious participation in class..Although I had difficulties with them on my first day.. But am glad I end the programme with them..And yar I managed to take their pictures too.. (Padehal, my teaching time dah overshot).. I went into the class again at the back door to take their pictures.. (Padehal teachernye ade di depan!)Kwang3..
Pearls.. Ouhh... So coolin.. (Padehal she did bought one before goin school earlier..) Well what to say, the wheather was so hot.. But her throat was much thirsty that she need Icy drink! Icy Iced... See-> She's tired yet she still put on a smile.. (Padehal dalam otak de stress before her final class tau..