it does not matter how long eir has not been updating. yup she seriously knows that. need not remind her anymore. eir knows that. coz she just hate the sight of her old lappie. she needs to change to a new one.if eir were to buy a new red vaio right now. she simply can. yes eir can. (ahh! nie smue alasan semata-mata. padehal lappie masih elok lagi..kot?)
however her savings priority. is not meant for that. no NO! not for a new lappie. or even for her new business that she has already cipped in which cost almost 20% of her savings!.. no! its for her first wishList! which has been hanging for months. what else is she waiting for??? the oppoturtunity has once missed. and another opportunity is yet to come soon. but herself is not ready for it yet? due to fees? not yet enough? hmm.. nOpe! (tidak, tinggal lagi dua bulan eir still can and have time to save up! tapi belum tentu dapat cukup nanti, haix) solution: easy what?! find another better paid job lar. =X
no. that is not the only reason which is holding back in pursuing the first step of her dreams. she really wants to enrol into that academy so much. thou she had already found out that that there will be a new one soon for next year... eir just don't want that! get it?
kata orang tanpa restu, tiada guna diteruskan. like wanting to enrol a motorbike license. till now, she did not do it. why? she know her parents don't like it, so why should she continue with that. but now, the situation is different. kerna ia membabitkan masa depannya - keinginannya dalam hidup ini!
pada siapa lagi harusku tanya? sampai bila lagi harus ku menderita? dengan masalah lain yang sentiasa menimpa diriku.. apa akan jadi kesudahannya.. tiada guna terus berdoa, tiada guna ku terus berharap.. tanpa usaha mencari jawapannya.. hidupku tak akan ke mana.. haruskah aku mengikut kata hati?
kata teman, hidup ini harus ada pelbagai cita-cita. jangan sahaja setia pada yang satu. betulkah? memang benar, hidup ini tidak sentiasa sempurna. salah langkah, diri akan menderita...
tidak ku minta lahir ke dunia
tidak ku minta perjalanan hidup sebegini
