.eirto ediera.
.2wentieth.
.Shatekian host.
.Tp Graduant.
.cam-whorer.
.stars gazer.
.big dreamer.
.brown.
.e-Business Entrepreneur


.graduaTion.
.culinary academy.
.zenStone.
.w910i.
.license.
.move out.
.red vaio.
.loose weight.
.happy family.
.soulmate.


.new image.
.earns lotsa money.
.learns fishing.
.attend sewing lesson.
.shopping spree.
.travel abroad.
.dyes her hair.
.owns a small fridge.
.ear candling.
.star-shaped accessories.
.visits dentist.
.smile always =).
.chocs alice crocs.
.own closet.
.improve her communication skills.
.smaller butt.
.volunteerism.
.swap a better paid job.


.ifumissme.
.lookoutforthemoonlite.
.ifuadoresme.
.doholdmetite.
.ifuloveme.
.dosaysoeachnite.
.butifuhateme.
.it'llbealrite.





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Oct '08 heractualJourneyhasNotevenyet
...started!~

Jan '09 her Journey has just begun!

yesterday,
in the eyes of chef
am not one yet
what went wrong
okie i do realise i do make mistakes..
yest test
only my salsa failed
the salsa does NOT even have the tomato taste
i know somethin somewhere went wrong
my first trial was perfect..
but why it fail again durin test?
(like my steam fish during prev test)
it was so perfect during practice.
but fail during test..
haix

but what make another two has upgraded & improved themself
to become better
and fighter in the eyes of chef..?
each time during practicals..
when my end product was bein pointed as good or even top 3..
but wat still make me not a fighter yet?!
iszit because am a lady?!
i dun wanna be rated different from men.
to me, when chef announced that he wanna rate gurls just among gurls
and guys among guys...
i really feel disheartened.

but i guess i have to understand
guys are guys
and gurls will still be gurls..
we are different in many ways..
there's only 4 gurls of us in the class.
and that is not the competition i want
i really want to be rated as equal as the guys..

well eirto-.!! look ahead okie..
maybe it could be...
i have been always taking time to prepare my end product?!
or.. chef sees that am still not comfortable wit my own station?!
hmm.. what?
i dunno..

well, luqman really feel disheartened.
he showed it!
i did feel too at first..
but i just dun wanna show it..
coz i know i have to figure out..
what is dat still missin in me..
that i have not shine out yet..
hmm..

*maybe my discipline?! PUNCTUALITYwise?!
**plus each test have to be perfecto and not just practical...
***haixx