.eirto ediera.
.2wentieth.
.Shatekian host.
.Tp Graduant.
.cam-whorer.
.stars gazer.
.big dreamer.
.brown.
.e-Business Entrepreneur


.graduaTion.
.culinary academy.
.zenStone.
.w910i.
.license.
.move out.
.red vaio.
.loose weight.
.happy family.
.soulmate.


.new image.
.earns lotsa money.
.learns fishing.
.attend sewing lesson.
.shopping spree.
.travel abroad.
.dyes her hair.
.owns a small fridge.
.ear candling.
.star-shaped accessories.
.visits dentist.
.smile always =).
.chocs alice crocs.
.own closet.
.improve her communication skills.
.smaller butt.
.volunteerism.
.swap a better paid job.


.ifumissme.
.lookoutforthemoonlite.
.ifuadoresme.
.doholdmetite.
.ifuloveme.
.dosaysoeachnite.
.butifuhateme.
.it'llbealrite.





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Oct '08 heractualJourneyhasNotevenyet
...started!~

Jan '09 her Journey has just begun!

Yest, before I visit atok
was suppose to favour Man to teach me Food cost
but in the end
it was a sharing session for us
its not just a sharing session
but it was an eye-opening
yet a heart-pain incident..

he told me bout
black birds surrounded him for 3 weeks
just before his granny passed away
he told me it wasnt any black bird
its the burung gagak
hearing that
my eyes was in the pool of tears..
yar, Man was shocked
so I was tellin him dat wed mornin
bout my face was almost bein hit by black bird
and da nite b4 (tues nite)
Mak Munah called home
askin abah to visit atok..
coz atok doesnt wanna eat and he's not talkin anymore

when i visit atok yest,
i can see dat he may be not long
but everytime i thought bout dat
i will try to put dat feelin away
and tell myself nothin will happen
the aunts was tellin
that abah said we have to just wait for his time to come..
i just cant stop cryin
even when i was odw to school just now
i shed tears on the train
i did not want to study for test
2 papers lagik
i told workplace i dun have the heart to work this weekend
its just my heart its not controllable anymore

i told ibu bout what i experience
bout the black bird
and it happened before to a fren
and ibu said..
those abah's jemaah too
receive somekind of heart feelings and instinct bout atok

i just can't take this anymore
seriously am not prepared.
thanx Man for calming me down
but I cant
*I still wanna cry..